Do you remember when saving pennies was exciting. Filling and emptying; counting and measuring, the whole thing was a game. A fun game that led to nothing in particular UNTIL we wanted that special something. In my case it was a fancy ring my mom and dad were not going to buy. Suddenly the delight of pennies became the taunt of not enough and I never again saved my coins for the pure joy of it.
January feels the drawing in of another kind:
Thrift by January Handl
Witnessing the seemingly
endless energy of preschoolers
as they run, fall, climb, jump,
roll, skip, sing, dance, build, wreck
hum, hop, laugh, cry, create, question,
triumph, fail, begin again
play play play play play play play….
I remember wishing wistfully
to bottle and save
this power source
while my own children grew,
and even though most days then
I could match it for the most part
I am finding my energy is a precious
thing, with new boundaries and limits
And the suffering of the world
And the opportunities to stress or be afraid
To absorb the pressures and frantic pace
To blame or judge, to cling or fret
To slip into the shadow of existence
Until my power is sapped and devoured
With only holes in my light bucket
to show for my day’s focus
I have decided to add some
awareness to what I choose to
spend my time and attention toward
my joys and sorrows still abound,
my love deepens and spreads before me
And again January leads us home. It is where we put our attention! When piling pennies was about the counting and when energy is spent on love and joys, thrift becomes a way to thrive. This leads us to this week’s question… how you answer determines your experience. Power sapped or power gained.
Where are you putting YOUR attention?
Tamara and January are here each Monday to help set the mood for the week!
Tamara Magnitsky, a child of the wild blue yonder,
has been an ardent student and advocate for poetry, photography and excellence in general.
She is the mother of a 6 year old daughter and a beloved wife.
She can be found most days.
Bio written by Cary Brosius ~Tamara’s husband 🙂
January Handl is first and always a mother, has been a preschool teacher and parent educator for 25 years. She is currently the Director/head teacher at Gazebo Park School, and lives at Esalen Institute in Big Sur. She lives simply in awe of existence.
She calls her photo “hot tub bliss” 🙂